✨ My Encounter with God’s Compassion
God Sent Comfort Through an Angel
I was in a very dark season in my life. My heart was shattered, and my spirit felt crushed. I felt unloved, ugly, and completely rejected. Not by God, but by another in my life. The emotional abuse and abandonment had taken a toll on me. I remember thinking how much easier it would be if I weren’t here anymore. That is something I will never do again, because of the love I have for my children, but that’s how deep the pain went. That’s how utterly depressed I was.
I was broken, empty, and ready to give up.
During the previous months, I had been praying, begging really, that I would see an angel, or that I at least would feel closer to the Lord and feel His wondrous love again.
I used to feel so close to Jesus, and I had that confidence in who I was in Him. The years of trying to please someone who would never be pleased wore me down into some kind of nothingness.
I lost myself. I lost who I was. I lost who I was to become.
During this time, my church held a conference.
At one point, the speaker was talking about angels and how to encounter them. During worship, I suddenly felt a gentle brush on the back of my arm, soft like feathers. I looked back to my right, expecting to see a familiar face, reaching out to say hi.
No one was standing there. Everyone was standing at their seats. In that moment, I saw what looked like an outline of the Holy Spirit on the stage.
He looked right at me and said with a smile, “Watch this!”
He ran toward our lead pastor as she played the most beautiful, glorious worship music I had ever heard. His outlined form left these brilliantly lit tracers behind Him. The entire room felt alive with heaven’s presence.
On the drive home, I had a vision.
In the back seat of my car, sitting directly behind me, I saw a dark figure, a disgusting-looking demon, wrapping a cord around my neck, trying to strangle me. Fear started to rise, but before I could react, my eyes were drawn forward.
Right in front of my car appeared a radiant angel. This vision wasn’t in solid form. I don’t know how to describe it exactly. I guess you could call it an open vision, which flowed as if there was a soft but constant breeze. The angel was translucent. I could see through it to the road and still drive.
I use ‘it’ only because this angel appeared to me in the form of a female.
This angel that I created on Canva with AI doesn’t do justice to the one I saw.
This angel’s hair was long and flowing, with soft waves that shimmered with sparks of light. The angel’s gown and hair were the whitest I’ve ever seen. The whiteness seemed to glow with the presence of God’s glory. There wasn’t a shadow or dullness to it at all.
Its gaze was pure, sweet, and caring. The angel looked straight at me and said gently, “Take your eyes off the demon. Look at me.” THEN….she lifted her hand and pointed upwards.
“Focus on Jesus Christ,” she said.
The angel spoke to me the entire way home with encouraging words.
“You carry the beauty of God within you. Never forget that. Keep your eyes on Christ. You are loved and cherished by the Father, and Jesus will never leave you. Hold your head high and look up. You are the daughter of the Most High God. Jesus has called you His own.” The angel told me.
For the entire drive home, she remained flowing ahead of my car. Her presence was peaceful and filled with joy. I felt the presence of the Lord so strongly. I was being surrounded and held in His presence.
This all happened during a time when I couldn’t see very well at all while driving at night. The lights glared so much that I’d be blinded. At times, it was nerve-wracking for me. I completely quit driving at night for quite a long time.
This night I had no one to drive me to the conference, so I went on my own.
As I worshiped and sang to Jesus on this very unique drive home, tears streaming down my face, the heaviness began to lift. And all the while this glorious angel lifted its hands, smiling, looking up to the Father, and telling me over and over how Jesus loves me.
The fear and rejection started to fade away. By the time I reached home, I wasn’t the same person. That night, something inside me was healed.
I felt loved again. I felt seen. I felt free. I felt the Father’s Love for the first time.
The deep pain that had wrapped itself around my heart began to unravel. The rejection no longer defined me. I remembered who I truly was, a daughter of the Most High God.
Another thing happened to me that night. My eyes began to heal from horrible night vision. I am now able to drive at night without any fear.
I knew that seeing this angel wasn’t just about an angelic encounter.
It was about the Father who refused to let His daughter drown in despair. He sent help when I needed it most. He reached through the darkness to remind me that I am His, loved, and never forgotten. I had been praying for His help, and He sent it.
It sure wasn’t an immediate answer, but it was a much-needed and impactful answer to my prayers.
God’s way is not like our ways. His way is so much better and deeper. His timing is perfect, even though most of the time we are praying for a faster response.
His Ways Are Amazing
His timing and the seasons we live in allow our hearts to soften and become moldable.
Sometimes, He has to take His time because we may be in a state of having a hard or closed-off heart, or we need to mature in our walk with Christ.
Friend, if you are hurting right now or feeling unloved, please hear this…
God sees you. You are not invisible. You are His precious child, and He will move heaven and earth to remind you of that truth. He loves you more than you will ever understand while here on this Earth.
“For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.” — Psalm 91:11
Reflection
Sometimes, the deepest healing happens when we’re at our weakest. When the enemy whispers lies about who we are, God sends reminders of His truth. Your pain does not disqualify you from His love. In fact, it often becomes the place where His grace shows up the strongest.
If you’ve been battling rejection, heartbreak, health issues, or depression, remember you are not forgotten. The same God who sent comfort to me can send comfort to you in ways that only He can orchestrate. He loves you more than you can comprehend, and He continues to perform miracles of restoration today.
Prayer
Heavenly Father, Thank You for seeing me when I feel unseen and loving me when I feel unlovable. Thank You for sending Your presence, Your Word, and even Your angels to remind me that I am Yours. When the darkness tries to close in, help me fix my eyes on Jesus, and put my focus on Him, not the issue. Heal the broken places in my heart, my way of thinking, and renew my strength. Teach me to rest in Your love, Father, and to remember who I am, Your cherished child. In Jesus’ mighty name, Amen.
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